screwed

im screwed.. period.. nth else to say le.. just screwed.. i dunno.. sometimes, when i say im screwed.. its just my thinkin, as in.. the person i thot tt screwed me didnt even mean it.. or it was obvious it wun last long.. but.. well.. i dunno bout this time..

i love to quote it phrase.. i dunno anymore, i dunno bout anything anymore.. how nice.. i seriously dunno le. except a few things: my love, my dear huggies.. and pistol.. tts bout all..

i realise ppl are always veri fake on e outside.. they seem happy, they seem so good.. but in e end.. when their masks are taken off, u see e real, raw, dark side of them.. it aint good.. i dunno y ppl wanna put a face there to block out all e unsightly scars.. maybe just cos its unsightly..

some ppl dun accept others, dunno wat is their fucking problem, being so pissed for no particular reason, etc, i realised tt everything everyone do has a reason, u are not e only one with a complex and well thot brain.. they think too, dun look at others as if they are ppl who dunno wat they are doin and dun really care if their pissed moods pisses other ppl off.. and speakin rite behind their backs.. imagine if u encountered sth veri unhappy, and ur mask can no longer block ur dark side.. it took over u and u cant control ur wrath anymore.. and ppl dun even try and see y u are pissed and just say tt u are pissed for no particular reason, like a idiot without brains and start tokin behind ur back.. how would u feel?? im sure it aint nice..

being a person aint easy.. u'll hav to keep in mind alot of things.. some ppl say: be urself, whether ppl like it or not.. they dun care.. ppl will just hav to accept them as they are.. maybe its true.. but i once heard.. if ppl dun accept u, then its u who has a problem.. and u should change.. maybe no to be just accepted.. but to becopme a more wholistic person.. i dunno.. so nx time ur fren gets pissed.. try to understand her.. maybe scold abit with her too.. she'll be glad.. well, i'll be if i were she.. =)