im just so happy somehow.. which i guess totally do not reflect the colour im using now for my words? haha.. wateva

o shit.. just realise tmr got research studies.. o dear.. haiz..

nvm

must still stay happy and all.. cos there God!! that create the COLORS!! HAHA.. SO cool woorr... haha..

yeah.. so theres colours!!!

ben really had a pt there ytd nite--he said, wat is faith when we only look into God when we actually need Him to create some sort of miracle or sth. its true, esp in my case i guess.. at first i always pray hard hard when i actually need His help.. but slowly and gradually, i begin to realise God's work in my life, not only through the difficult times, but also during happy times, i realise, without His grace, those beautiful things would nv have happened!! though im sorta retarded in realise these facts, i am still thankful for God's grace! =)

yup yup..
i decided to completely give up on huggies already, no prob wah.. and i really believe hes in good hands, just that he needs to change his blog link.. messiah or sth is really really WRONG.. haiz.. dunno wat hes thinkin woor..

im totally broke.. and i dunno wat to do... somemore need to pay for so many things.. haiz.. mum really gettin pissed i think.. somemore cleanin up my room for me cos its like freakin messy.. and we are plannin to sell our flat and buy a new one? yeah... the previous paragraph is of a diff colour. but it seems so .. simliar

suddenly reminded of canvas 2.. elis in the end end up with oniichan still.. its a happy ending i shall say, but i just think that.. well, it no longer hold any special meaning to me le.. see, now im not sad anymore.. SEE THE MIRACLE OF THE LORD? He can always make me happy no matter wat!! =)

now even tmr's rs dun seem to be bothering me.. i just know tmr will be fun fun fun somehow.. not to count the fastin time for God =) and to pray for ppl and Singapore!!

somehow at this pt of time, dun have any feelins for huggies anymore.. then i wonder y i still refer to him as huggies, well.. its a name.. and we shall keep it that way. ha ha ha

dun really care mind about it i guess.. i guess i keep holdin him back somehow.. well.. i dunno leh.. the love future for me rite now seem rather.. bleak? haha.. pathetic circle of frens and all.. but hey.. im not like despo or wateva.. i rather hav a million great frens that a bf.. haha.. like i wanna get into a relationship that fast too. nah.. i wun wan that... like ewww..

hahaha

really dun wan a bf now come to think of it.. haha... i wanna chat with di di lar..but he abit the not online now.. i really like takin the train with him lo.. then can laugh at him cos he has to hold onto sth on the bus.. muahahahahah

im not mean.. im nice.. ha

veri happy now..and tmr still have to pay derek like.. 40 bucks.. and ten bucks suppose to come from me.. so how how how u tell me how.. haiz..

ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS: GOD IS IN WORK IN OUR LIVES, ALL WE NEED TO DO IS BELIEVE