troubled

im yes.. well, troubled.. hm.. veri troubled..

but u can say i had a great day u know.. muggin with bird.. shoppin for jon's presssie.. makin ben treat us.. and of cos.. most imptly.. going to church and really being glad about it.. really wished everett was there.. pastor khong finally touched on the subject of the real truth and all.. but i hav a feelin its not wat everett wants.. and well.. hes not jokin when he said: its either my way or no way (actual words: the high way, but since its sounds so gay.. i shall change it for him.. loL )

its no joke.. hes really like tt..

and well. ytd me and chili found those skimpy photos on everett's comp.. i mean.. its not surprising .. but i just sorta.. feel sad cos of that..

sigh.. tts everett lar.. and since carol say ant said hes changin already.. i cant expect too much out of a person.. esp when im imperfect myself? and chili can alwyas pt them out to me.. so its kinda cool.. but i dun deny i feel shes sorta too sensitive at time.. but its good too.. cos i realise sometimes i wanna be cool and outgoing and thus sort of got damn insensitive.. so i need that sensitive influence..

i dun deny that i do find flaws in ppl close to me.. but i know i'll learn to appreciate these flaws.. because criticsing these stuff wun make u any better.. yeah..

ok.. back to everett thingie that im well.. troubled over.. sometimes i love him.. sometimes im glad i hav a.. fren like him.. sometimes i just hate him and wonder y i ever liked him... yeah.. and i bet he feels the same way too.. those are just conflicts.. and certain things that just well. hard to change.. sometimes i feel that our relationship is really more than just lovey dovey stuff.. its really.. well.. sometimes we dun hav to say stuff.. we just understand each other.. and hm.. he understand me better than i do to him.. so yeah.. tt shows y my "brilliant plan" didnt work..

hm.. maybe on second thots.. i just few the above paragraph is bullshit.. yeah.. its bull.. so ignore.. i lazy delete..

i love him as a fren can? love him as much as i love ant!!

he was a little green and yellow mushroom today lor!! so fun!! he look so weird in jeans.. too skinny lar.. need to eat more man!! loL..

bought jon's pressie.. suddenly lazy to blog more le..