thinkings

these whole week is quite horrible.. u can say.. its just weird i guess.. and ppl dun really understand it when i say weird. but its plain weird.. and once again.. im reminded of how drama i am.. well.. tts the way i am..

try and change me.. and i'll bite.. muahaha

had lots of fun and lots of frustrating times too.. dunno if the devil is all out to try and get me or wat.. first sally sick on wednesday.. then sick on thursday, so no cell.. then sick on friday again so no cell.. just when i need my spiritual norishment.. but i guess God is definitely tryin to tell me sth here.. its not like every week get the spiritual norishment i need to get me goin for the rest of the week or wateva.. its more like a life long relationship.. and just when things go wrong.. one finds all the things one finds comfort in, either useless or gone.. everything.. every fren one can turn to.. even cell gone.. cos sally sick..

thats when the lesson comes: look into God.. not only when ur comfort items are not there.. but look to God first.. cos everyone can die, everyone has their own lives.. they wun be there for u FOREVER.. God is the first priority.. always.. nth should come before Him..

changing my blog skin latr.. time i move on. and not be so drama.. down to earth is the best.. just like weite said.. i changed.. well.. since its a good change. well.. tts good aint it?

this wk is weird.. so weird..

time to move on.. no more drama.. yeah.. more down to earth.. i hate it when i realise that wat i decided to do and change is sth that ant has been tryin to tell me for like gosh noes when.. seem like im such a not down to earth person.. but wats a person without some.. imagination? heh

so sad tmr cant go church..need to go scarlet.. hm.. dunnno how it'll be yet.. fingers crossed on that.. suddenly my mum's droning seem to hav taken effect on me.. sigh..

my arm hurts from dm and training.. sigh.. i need to really train more..

i dun like down to earth.. all my fun gone...all the drama.. hee..

life is that way it is..

sometimes.. maturity aint that good

now, well fed and had a nite slp.. and now sian until like dunno wat, i can start blogging bout ytd.. haha

i realise i like to suan that kevin person. cos its so fun to suan him! ha!

anyway.. went to jon's house with wayren and ky.. and met kok and yuwen at tamp interchange.. so we went tgt.. haha.. note to self: nv wear skirt again.. actually didnt know wat i was thinkin !!! argh.. so embarrasing!! ><

argh.. so stupid me!! anyway.. we got there.. and felt abit weird cos its all guys.. and they are sitting (and occupyin all the seats) at the sofas thingies there.. then the gals went to sit at the.. wat u call it.. back thingie.. sth like tt la..

haha.. i got sian so start playin guitar.. buut my skills really suck.. and only know that one and a half songs.. -.-

o.. i ate some pizza.. argh.. forgot to eat the mash potato!! T.T

anyway.. jon planned ice breakers!! haha.. pick two names and they have to play the game!! me and yaoyu suppose to play.. alot of ppl laughed.. and i still dunno y.. haha.. anyway.. sigh

everett got slightly ... cant say pissed.. rather.. tired of our childish ways u can say?.. i guess its sth like tt.. but hes fine now.. according to carol.. hm.. and also.. i realsie im beginning to understand carol less and less.. but yeah.. shes definitely changing.. suddenly.. i realise.. everyone is changing.. everyone is not like what i thot they are like.. good and bad.. its like.. madhu being late cos she wanna queue up to eat!! and left me at the foyer for 20 minutes!! i mean..wats her freakin problem?? didnt she have enought sense to think that i might be waiting?? sigh.. nvm lar.. not like im such a righteous person..

carol also.. shes changin into a better person i guess.. but i jsut dun understand her!! sigh.. me, carol and everett are the only ppl who pms alot.. i find it funni.. but its not good.. sigh..

ok.. back to jon's bdae.. when the ice breaker started... me and yao yu start going up the stairs.. to avoid the commotion downstairs!! haha.. we are so pro lar.. but i think we died early anyway..

after that they start saboing jon with all kinda of stuff.. poor jon.. such a good sport and all.. yeah.. then latr after the cake and stuff.. everett and ant and dono and yao yu left le.. hm.. then we see jon open presents.. haha.. jon is so funi lar!! =)))

now.. its reflections time i guess..

things just gets better i guess!! =)

really glad on how this week has been turnin out.. and though my work load should be seemly huge or wateva, im quite happy with it toO! haha yay

just that i think im a bit sick.. so dunno if i'll hav to stay at home tmr again.. i dun mind actually.. hee.. i mean well.. i AM sick.. then need to rest wah.. cant wait for the end of the term..

jon didnt ask me go his bdae thingy.. haha.. all e gals didnt.. sort of reminded me of ant.. ha..

really really happy now.. thanks to God.. but i really wish i can shoot nx yr for rg stilL.. SO GOD, I PRAY THAT U'LL BLESS ME AND LET ME SHOOT FOR RGS NX YR..

lookin at this yr.. it has been quite wonderful!! ok.. maybe the first term wasnt the fabulous.. then after that i think it just gets better heh? i've nv been so happy in my whole secondary school life before!! yay


but i think now im ill.. seriouslly

hm..

yeah.. damn happy.. bought a nice book for bible studies and random thots and all.. quite fun.. but quite waste money hor? sigh.. sorri worr..bleh..

movin house...

life is great

sigh

im stressed.. and everytime i wanna blog i'll always end up being too tired or wateva crap..

tmr is ps.. the day we've been waiting for. cant wait to see wats in the goodie bag... not that its free.. but cos its gonna be great memories to me.. maybe after the concert we stay late enough, we'll be able to get ps's signatures!! wun that be cool??? so happy yay

yeah.. so tmr meet at 5 at changi.. i still have a feelin half the ppl will turn up at 5.30 or sth.. i dunno wat to do lor.. i really wanna just say i dun care lor.. but tt will just piss ppl off and somemore its for God leh.. how can hav this kinda attitude.. shesh..

ant tokin bout how hes been gettin more and more ignorant to small details in life that hes suppose to take note.. well.. if its serious to him, i find it no reason not to be of any concern for others to help.. aint it? but i just feel abit bu hao yi si.. cos im like tt leh.. like everything heck care.. kena sent to straight dc also like scold teacher like that.. so how? am i like a bad influence to ant? then like tt i dun wan le lor.. i rather jus like.. not tok to him lar.. then he can continue to be his angel.. yeah.. shesh.. i really need to change..

but sometimes its not up to me i guess.. frens, peer pressure.. and when i try to stick to wat i believe in and ppl dun really see y im doing so, they just dislike Christianity more like tt.. i really dun wan that to happen.. so how.. nvm lar.. slowly slowly learn lar =)

i still have no idea wat i'll be wearin tmr and i still duno wat chili's reaction will be towards our high-ness tmr during ps.. but im not gonna stop myself from the usual stuff i do during worship just cos of that.. loL.. serious.. but hope she'll see it with an open mind.. really happy tt shes going for ps.. really really happy.

the link below is to new set of shots.. i love jingna lar.. she rocks rocks rocks.. yay yay.. dun care wat ppl say lar.. its freakin nice to me leh.. yay
http://www.zemotion.net/100806/

ok.. enough ego time..

still dunno wat to wear tmr.. argh.. how how how how.. yeah.. shall ask bird!!

i still need to do chinese.. i'll do now!!

hm..

haha.. hectic week.. tts all i can say.. and now its already friday. hard to believe heh aww.. im so tired.. i think i'll go slp ..nite

love u

bored

since i got nth better to do, i shall blog like a super long blog entry or sth..

just cant wait for saturday, ps and all.. and like going shoppin for the shirts and chili's shoes and all.. hope chili will like ps.. really hope so.. and still dunno wat to wear on saturday.. i need to wear sth white.. bleh.. how how how how how.. help me help me help me.. sigh

ant say wat we think is extremely amusing.. extremely dramatic i guess.. loL..

i just like my life this way now..
rite now.. loL

church was great.. i was damn stone at first.. but it ended well!! need to get more tix for ant.. bleh.. see im so nice..

anyway.. met renxiang, of all ppl, at my parents' shop.. i was super shocked.. didnt know he recognised me too.. kinda fun..

now im freakin ful.. shall no tell u how much i ate.. im turnin fat.. maybe .. nvm

God bless.. suddenly dun feel like bloggin le.. some problems will continue to be there unless we take e effort to stop it i guess.. yeah.. i dunnno leh.. maybe ppl are just too unwilling to give up sometimes?? yeah.. but givin up is good.. yeh

finally fixed my wire.. at least can tok all i want without havin to hurt.. so hapy
im slpy.. i shall go slp

HAVEN

You are my anchor, my shelter, my HAVEN..

like everett said.. its like spreadin e gospel!! but its not that strong.. so ppl should still find it comfortable..

yeah.. its kind of fun lar.. went to play dm in the morn...then rushed to chili's house to do abit of chinese pt.. then went back to home to bathe and rest abit.. then rushed to clementi.. i THOT i was goin to be late..

was stonin there and ant said he'll reach in ONE MINUTE.. end up reachin in like 5 minutes plus.. weixian even worse.. dunno wat time then reach.. so me and ant stone to wait for weixian lo.. and its super funni cos we sort of stood in the queue for another bus without knowing.. anw, we sort of got lost and couldnt find the stupid macs.. so we end up eatin at some KFC, which we thot was at the side of the plaza thingie where the macs is.. but as u expected it.. it WASNT.. so it was kind of VERI SCREWED.. so we sort of walked one big round..

i feel kind of bad.. cos ant wants to get to sch earlier to meet his fren who just came back from UK.. but i sort of screwed up.. anyway, we end up takin taxi and since i paid.. i feel slightly better i guess.. hee..

ok..got to acsi, and the place was freakin nice!!! aww.. called everett for him to come out and give us our tix.. good thing they kop seats for us already!! =)))) then in the small row we were sittin at, got two CHIO BUS... turn out to be esmond's frens.. funi heh.. he ALWAYS got chiobus frens.. im a gal.. and i dun hav so many lor..

anyway.. we sat the two most outside seats, then one empty seat, then the two chiobus.. then everett and esmond then nick i think.. then latr dunno wat everett moved to beside me so that ant's UK fren (james?) can sit there.. poor ant had to sit at the row infront of us.. sigh.. anyway.. the chiobus were askin everett sth then they said sth like: yes rite? u are blushin!!

ha ha.. i think they are askin him bout.. me?? ee.. dunno lar..

then latr esmond and everett left their seats to dunno do wat.. then they chiobus ask me if i like everett -.-... but now i know y they think so in the first place.. maybe cos he moved to beside me!! yeah.. so BIG DEAL.. ha..

haven was nice.. ed rocks rocks rocks.. hes so professional!! like a natural!! its too bad he cant be the lead or sth.. i look at him.. i think of the primary school days.. i feel proud of him somehow.. like he really lived to his dreams in primary sch and probably the most.. ACOMPLISHED 6ab-er.. =).. so proud to hav such a great exclassmate!! loL

ok.. the exciting part.. INTERMISSION!! GUESS WHO ME AND WEIXIAN SAW.. SHAWN ANG.. there were so many ppl!! we were so luck to find him!! yay yay yay yay.. everett calls me gone case.. but nvm lar.. SHAWN ANG.. hes not really wat u call shuai.. but hes my idol!! so freakin fun to see him lar!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.. then we were like freakin out cos of it.. and the whole intermission was so enjoyable cos of that.. then after haven also!! we keep seeing him lar.. cos we got nth better to do anyway.. until wayren ask us to go find the others..

o yeah!! ELISA!! nvm i nv find a shuai guy other than shawn ang.. but i got to know real nice person!! haha.. jon's fren!! elisa.. shes freakin nice and she LOVE GREEN.. omg omg.. and shes so devoted Christian like tt lar.. such a pro person.. ahhhhhhh..

on the bus journey home.. it was so freakin cold.. and everett HAS to wear his jacket.. cos he was under the aircon.. and i was freezin.. sigh..

i need to shit.. tata

hm.. cant wait for haven.. they say it rocks..hope so lar.. pay so much money.. and tmr need to pay them le.. pay ant 30 bucks.. hm.. abit the no money ar.. hee.. o well

saw everett's nick: everyone needs one(haven), somewhere.. sth like tt lar..

haven.. hm.. i wonder.. sometimes.. its just.. like a shoppin trip with frens.. tts when u find peace.. true joy.. dun hav to act in any sort of way to cover up ur insecuries.. u can act in the way u wan.. and feel comfortable about it..

quite stressed actually.. dunno wat to do..

but i know tmr will be a good day..
so now i should go and slp.. yup yup.. but then tmr dinner thingie how?? aiyah.. sms ant or sth lar..

nite everyone
GOD I LOVE U..